If I wanna, he says. [ Steve shakes his head with a small chuckle. If that isn't enough to dismiss the insane idea that he might back out at this stage, the unabashed quickness with which Steve sets about grabbing the lube and coating his dick ought to hammer the message home. His dick is so sensitive it feels like he could go off from a mere breeze; beads of pre-cum drip out steadily as he strokes himself with a light touch, just enough to spread the lube evenly.
And then, well. It's time, isn't it? They are really, truly, actually doing this. And it's up to Steve now to keep it moving, so he doesn't give himself the space to hesitate, pushing himself up the bed on his knees until he can settle directly between Tony's thighs. It's hard not to meet Tony's face in this position, with Steve almost hovering over him, and Steve finds he doesn't want to look away. He wants to see it all, commit every micro-expression Tony makes to memory.
With a deep breath, Steve is finally, finally pressing the tip of his cock against Tony's hole. It seems an impossible fit, but the muscle gives just enough, and suddenly the head of his dick is inside of Tony, and Jesus Christ, this really is happening. Tony feels so tight, and the pressure is heavenly against Steve; he continues pushing in slowly, sinking into that sweet heat until he's almost half inside. ]
Tony, fuck, you're so— you feel amazing. Are you good? Please tell me you're still good.
[Tony's never thought of himself as a size queen before, but having someone as big as Steve in him makes him rethink that position (ha). Even though there's a slight burn, it's still fucking incredible. He's never felt so full before, so stretched out, and there's still more to go. God, he's going to be ruined for anyone else after this.
He actually blushes when Steve calls him amazing - not that there's a lot of blood left to rush to his cheeks, but a valiant effort is made - even though, yeah, he knows he is, but hearing Steve say it is a whole other thing that makes Tony's heart flutter. Sure, he'd probably say that to anyone who took his virginity, but he chose Tony (or Tony chose him, or this is just an escalation of their game of gay chicken, but who's really going to nitpick that right now?).]
Ohhhhhh yeah. [The words are mostly one long moan; Tony thinks through and discards a half-dozen filthy things he could say right now.] Keep goin', soldier.
[Tony can't remember to praise Steve right now, but the way he arches his hips up to try and take more of Steve speaks volumes. The only thing he can think about right now is how much he wants Steve to fuck him.]
You really like the soldier thing, huh? [ It is, without question, the most minute and inconsequential detail that Steve could latch on to at this particular moment. And yet. Steve has always had an inexplicable need to prove to Tony that he's more than just a soldier, more than the stripes and shield, but the endearment doesn't rankle like it once did. Right now it's just another addition to the "Things that turn Tony Stark on and might encourage him to try this again" data set that Steve's brain started tracking entirely without his permission.
Steve gasps as Tony rolls his hips, pressing up against him like he can't get enough, so Steve dutifully gives him more, pushing in slowly to start, then taking up quick, small thrusts to ease himself deeper. He stabilizes himself with one hand flat on the bed while using his other arm to pull Tony's thigh flush against his chest, giving him the angle he needs to finally sink all the way in. He stops there to catch his breath, panting as he drags his gaze back up to Tony's face. ]
H-haven't come up with a good nickname for you yet. [And, yes, the word choice might have had something to do with goading Steve on (inasmuch as Tony can think about such things right now, because even his brain can only do so much). But at least Tony had known instinctively to steer clear from Captain. He's not fucking Captain America (inconsequential teenage fantasies aside), but Steve Rogers. Somewhere along the line, the distinction became important to him, and he's pretty damn sure it's important to Steve.]
Fuck, [Tony breathes reverently when Steve pauses. The word is half-prayer, half-pleading, all praise, and Tony's eyes are blown wide and dark. He barely manages to focus his gaze on Steve as he blinks dazedly - but from somewhere, he pulls together the presence of mind to reach up with his good hand and pull Steve's head down while he lunges up to kiss him. They clash together - literally, Tony's lucky he doesn't chip a tooth - and the kiss is sloppy and desperate and absolutely not Tony's finest hour, but he doesn't care, he wants all of Steve, mouth and cock and everything in between.]
[ Clumsy as it might be, every last molecule that composes Steve Rogers leans into that kiss. He pushes Tony back down onto the mattress and kisses him back as deeply as he knows how. Then he starts moving his hips, pulling out just a fraction and thrusting all the way in again, slowly and surely, like they have all the time in the world. It takes more coordination than Steve expected to have right now, but sheer determination counts for a lot, because it doesn't take long to settle into a perfectly torturous rhythm, teasing Tony with his tongue just as thoroughly as with his cock. ]
[This is not the clumsy virgin fumbling Tony expected - and, hell, he wouldn't have cared if it was - but for once Steve's tendency to be annoyingly good at things he's never done before works in Tony's favor. Steve seems to know instinctively how to draw things out, and somehow even pulls off a pretty impressive level of tongue-fucking while he's at it.
Tony exists in a quantum state, simultaneously a puddle of erotic bliss being fucked into the mattress and the awareness of his very solid and hard dick trapped between their bodies. He's almost content to let it stay that way (except not really), but then he shifts his hips a little and the head of Steve's cock drags over his prostate, and his entire body vibrates like a plucked string.]
Goddamnit, Steve, [he breathes against his lips,] fuck me like you mean it.
[ Where inexperience inhibited Steve before, that started to matter less the further they got; somewhere along the way things shifted, and now it's all about athleticism and control, two things that Steve has no trouble with thanks to the serum. So when Tony tells him to start fucking like he means it, he rises to the challenge immediately, going in fast and deep after that spot that had Tony lit up like a live wire.
This, he knows how to do: using his body like the perfect instrument it was engineered to be. He keeps a sure and steady pace, picking up speed now as he fucks in sharply, pulling out with a slower, wicked drag. Again, then again, and again. No momentum is lost, not a beat missed, as Steve simultaneously maneuvers Tony's legs so that his ankles hang over Steve's shoulders. That gives him the space to lean in as close as he can possibly get and press a very pleased-with-himself smile to the corner of Tony's lips. He keeps the rhythm going, punctuating each word with another solid thrust. ] Like that?
[Tony, for once, is at a loss for words; he can't manage a retort because his entire world has narrowed down to those sharp thrusts over his prostate, the heat of Steve's body pressed against his. Instead, he makes an assortment of increasingly filthy and obscene noises, his fingers scrabbling for purchase in the sheets. If he dies somewhere in this process, at least he'll die a happy man.]
[ As the original poster boy for performance-enhancing drugs, it wouldn't be fair for Steve Rogers to ever compete in the Olympics. But damn if rendering Tony Stark speechless doesn't seem deserving of a gold medal. Steve's self-satisfied grin only grows, even as he attempts a return to kissing that he can barely spare the coordination for; it's messy and uneven and eventually unravels until Steve is mostly just gasping against Tony's mouth as he starts to lose control.
Steve never expected to last very long, but he doesn't want to come without first bringing Tony over the edge, so something has to be done about that, and quick. The next time he pulls out, he leans out just enough to get a hand around Tony's dick, and when he pushes back in his hand pumps Tony in sync with each thrust. ]
[That's what Tony's looking for. Maybe he came last time without anyone touching his dick, but this time, he desperately wants the stimulation, wants Steve to touch him like he'd seen him stroking himself earlier. Steve's touch comes as a relief after getting worked up to the point of being so hard that he's aching, and Tony has to bite back something like a sob.
But he doesn't have time to think about that, because Steve's hand keeps moving in time with his thrusts, and Tony rocks up into the touch as all his muscles strain. He's stretched taut for a few agonizing moments before release washes over him in a wave and he comes in long spurts dripping down Steve's torso.]
[ It seems like every muscle in Tony's body tenses at once, and Steve knows what that means, but he doesn't get a chance to revel in his success. Tony's muscles ripple around his cock in the most agonizingly delicious way and, as if that's not enough, he shoots off across Steve's abs, painting Steve with his come like a Jackson Pollock canvas. ]
Oh fuck, [ is as much as Steve can get out before he follows Tony over that cliff, spending himself deep inside.
They say a lot of trite things about your first time, but Steve has no doubt he'll never forget this. It's just too bad that he peaked his very first time, because sex can't possibly get better than this. ]
[It seems like an eternity before Tony's neurons start firing again, and even then, it's mostly just to let him know that, yes, he is still alive and conscious (mostly) and covered by one (1) super-soldier blanket. Which is good, because otherwise he'd seriously question at least one of those things.
Tony blinks slowly, then ponderously lifts one hand up and rests it on the nape of Steve's neck, his fingertips idly stroking the end of his hair. Yep. That's enough movement for the next few hours.]
Hmm. [ Steve hums happily when Tony's fingers find the back of his neck. He wonders what he must look like, catching his breath like he just ran marathons, with clumps of sweat-damp hair falling into his eyes. In his biased opinion, Tony has him beat: Steve has never seen him look so relaxed, and it turns out he wears it awfully well.
He isn't fully soft when he pulls out, and physically he knows his body could go again, but emotionally Steve is spent. All he really wants to do is help Tony settle back into a more comfortable position and then slot himself up against his side, or as close as he can get short of crushing Tony under his weight. ]
Mmmph, [Tony agrees eloquently. With Steve's assistance, he curls up on one side - yeah, things are probably going to be sticky and unpleasant shortly, but it won't be the first time in his life he's dealt with it, and it won't be the last - and then lets Steve settle in behind him before he leans back against a nice warm (sticky) wall of torso.]
Not bad for your first time. [Even if Steve can't see Tony's goofy grin, his tone of voice makes it clear that this is definitely not a criticism.] But if you wanna get better with practice, I might be willing to lend a hand. Give you some pointers, let you fuck me into the mattress. That kind of thing.
[ Steve wraps an arm around Tony's waist as he settles into the position, burying his face in the crook of Tony's neck because he can't help himself. They're both going to need a shower, and the bed requires a fresh set of sheets, but those are problems for future Steve. Nothing lasts forever, and when he's left with only memories, Steve wants to remember every last detail from tonight. The only way to do that is to let himself exist fully in the moment. ]
You'd do that? [ Yeah, sure, Steve is a specimen and it's no trouble to sleep with him. He gets it. But this is a lot more than friends usually do for each other. (There's also the fact that Steve is going to get his heart shattered when this inevitably ends, and it will be no one's fault but his own. But again, problems for future Steve.) ]
[Oh, god, Steve's face is pressed up against Tony's neck, and Tony is pretty sure his heart's going to explode from all the emotions he's trying to suppress right now. Still, he lets himself twine his scarred fingers into Steve's in a gesture that might be a little too intimate for two guys who are more or less friends but also apparently fucking.]
Assuming you don't kill me in the process, yeah. [Tony tries to sound casual. Nothing weird here, just an act of altruism on Tony's part. Someone's gotta teach Steve how to use that thing, and it might as well be modern-day Casanova Tony Stark, right? It absolutely makes sense. And if he gets some cuddling in addition to a lot of great orgasms, well, everyone knows Tony's a hands-on kinda guy.]
[ It occurs to Steve that they never would have done this, if Tony had died that day, and he squeezes Tony's fingers a little tighter. He also presses a kiss to Tony's shoulder blade because, fuck it, Tony could have died that day, and Steve would have never had the chance. ]
I'm really partial to you staying alive. [ He knows he made that plenty clear already, and actions speak louder than words, but sometimes words are needed too. Especially words he gets to speak against Tony's skin. ]
[Surely Steve can't mean anything by that, Tony thinks. There's probably a perfectly normal explanation, like-
Well, Tony can't come up with one right now, but it has to exist. He's okay with Steve saving him because it's that Thing Steve Rogers Does, because they'd promised each other to try not to die, but he can't wrap his mind around Steve wanting him alive for some personal, presumably selfish reason that has nothing to do with sex.]
Contrary to anything I might have said earlier, so am I.
[Which may or may not have something to do with Steve, but obviously doesn't because haha why would you think that?]
Good, [ Steve says against Tony's shoulder, ] we're in agreement.
[ His reasons for wanting Tony alive were selfish, and they get more selfish as time goes on, because now they have this, and Steve isn't about to give it up for anything. But he can't exactly say that, so he'll let Tony keep thinking Steve's concern is in a fellow Avenger kind of way, not in a deeply personal and emotional kind of way. ]
I mean, for one thing, I haven't even gotten to ride you yet.
[There. Now he can turn the conversation back to something safer, like sex - although there's always the danger that Steve might manage to get it up again, and Tony definitely can't handle another orgasm tonight. All he wants to do is maybe kind of accidentally on purpose fall asleep in Steve's bed. With Steve.
[ Steve can't help picturing how Tony would look riding him, which is a mistake because his dick doesn't need any encouragement, and he presses his forehead to Tony's back and groans. ]
Are you sure it's not you who's trying to kill me?
If channeling the power of the Infinity Stones didn't do it, I don't think a few more erections will make a dent.
[Tony sounds entirely too cheerful considering the topic of conversation, but he's right - Steve can handle jumping out of a plane just fine, abusing his libido is no big deal. And, frankly, Steve probably deserves it after all the times he's left Tony hard and wanting without even knowing it, including a handful of really inconvenient erections in the suit.]
We did that together. [ That's about the only positive thing from the experience, because it hurt like hell and they both could have died, but it's the most important detail, too, if you ask Steve. That they survived not just as a result of taking it on together, but because of it. ]
Well, Steve, it takes two to tango - or I guess to fondue, in your case.
[Tony can't resist a playful jab, mainly to get away from the awkwardness of that 'together' and what it possibly implies.]
I mean, obviously you can do it solo, but that's not why I'm here. Unless you wanna let me watch, which, hey, I fully support. We can have a good time talking about sex toys.
Shut up. [ Steve is grateful their current position keeps Tony from seeing the blush spreading across Steve's cheeks. He says it playfully, because he's long since resigned himself to being teased about the fondue thing, but then Tony mentions sex toys and Steve practically chokes on his own tongue. ]
I meant that I didn't channel all that energy alone, [ he clarifies, ] but let's just forget it and agree neither of us gets to die. Deal?
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And then, well. It's time, isn't it? They are really, truly, actually doing this. And it's up to Steve now to keep it moving, so he doesn't give himself the space to hesitate, pushing himself up the bed on his knees until he can settle directly between Tony's thighs. It's hard not to meet Tony's face in this position, with Steve almost hovering over him, and Steve finds he doesn't want to look away. He wants to see it all, commit every micro-expression Tony makes to memory.
With a deep breath, Steve is finally, finally pressing the tip of his cock against Tony's hole. It seems an impossible fit, but the muscle gives just enough, and suddenly the head of his dick is inside of Tony, and Jesus Christ, this really is happening. Tony feels so tight, and the pressure is heavenly against Steve; he continues pushing in slowly, sinking into that sweet heat until he's almost half inside. ]
Tony, fuck, you're so— you feel amazing. Are you good? Please tell me you're still good.
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He actually blushes when Steve calls him amazing - not that there's a lot of blood left to rush to his cheeks, but a valiant effort is made - even though, yeah, he knows he is, but hearing Steve say it is a whole other thing that makes Tony's heart flutter. Sure, he'd probably say that to anyone who took his virginity, but he chose Tony (or Tony chose him, or this is just an escalation of their game of gay chicken, but who's really going to nitpick that right now?).]
Ohhhhhh yeah. [The words are mostly one long moan; Tony thinks through and discards a half-dozen filthy things he could say right now.] Keep goin', soldier.
[Tony can't remember to praise Steve right now, but the way he arches his hips up to try and take more of Steve speaks volumes. The only thing he can think about right now is how much he wants Steve to fuck him.]
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Steve gasps as Tony rolls his hips, pressing up against him like he can't get enough, so Steve dutifully gives him more, pushing in slowly to start, then taking up quick, small thrusts to ease himself deeper. He stabilizes himself with one hand flat on the bed while using his other arm to pull Tony's thigh flush against his chest, giving him the angle he needs to finally sink all the way in. He stops there to catch his breath, panting as he drags his gaze back up to Tony's face. ]
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Fuck, [Tony breathes reverently when Steve pauses. The word is half-prayer, half-pleading, all praise, and Tony's eyes are blown wide and dark. He barely manages to focus his gaze on Steve as he blinks dazedly - but from somewhere, he pulls together the presence of mind to reach up with his good hand and pull Steve's head down while he lunges up to kiss him. They clash together - literally, Tony's lucky he doesn't chip a tooth - and the kiss is sloppy and desperate and absolutely not Tony's finest hour, but he doesn't care, he wants all of Steve, mouth and cock and everything in between.]
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Tony exists in a quantum state, simultaneously a puddle of erotic bliss being fucked into the mattress and the awareness of his very solid and hard dick trapped between their bodies. He's almost content to let it stay that way (except not really), but then he shifts his hips a little and the head of Steve's cock drags over his prostate, and his entire body vibrates like a plucked string.]
Goddamnit, Steve, [he breathes against his lips,] fuck me like you mean it.
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This, he knows how to do: using his body like the perfect instrument it was engineered to be. He keeps a sure and steady pace, picking up speed now as he fucks in sharply, pulling out with a slower, wicked drag. Again, then again, and again. No momentum is lost, not a beat missed, as Steve simultaneously maneuvers Tony's legs so that his ankles hang over Steve's shoulders. That gives him the space to lean in as close as he can possibly get and press a very pleased-with-himself smile to the corner of Tony's lips. He keeps the rhythm going, punctuating each word with another solid thrust. ] Like that?
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Steve never expected to last very long, but he doesn't want to come without first bringing Tony over the edge, so something has to be done about that, and quick. The next time he pulls out, he leans out just enough to get a hand around Tony's dick, and when he pushes back in his hand pumps Tony in sync with each thrust. ]
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But he doesn't have time to think about that, because Steve's hand keeps moving in time with his thrusts, and Tony rocks up into the touch as all his muscles strain. He's stretched taut for a few agonizing moments before release washes over him in a wave and he comes in long spurts dripping down Steve's torso.]
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Oh fuck, [ is as much as Steve can get out before he follows Tony over that cliff, spending himself deep inside.
They say a lot of trite things about your first time, but Steve has no doubt he'll never forget this. It's just too bad that he peaked his very first time, because sex can't possibly get better than this. ]
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Tony blinks slowly, then ponderously lifts one hand up and rests it on the nape of Steve's neck, his fingertips idly stroking the end of his hair. Yep. That's enough movement for the next few hours.]
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He isn't fully soft when he pulls out, and physically he knows his body could go again, but emotionally Steve is spent. All he really wants to do is help Tony settle back into a more comfortable position and then slot himself up against his side, or as close as he can get short of crushing Tony under his weight. ]
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Not bad for your first time. [Even if Steve can't see Tony's goofy grin, his tone of voice makes it clear that this is definitely not a criticism.] But if you wanna get better with practice, I might be willing to lend a hand. Give you some pointers, let you fuck me into the mattress. That kind of thing.
[What could possibly go wrong with this plan?]
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You'd do that? [ Yeah, sure, Steve is a specimen and it's no trouble to sleep with him. He gets it. But this is a lot more than friends usually do for each other. (There's also the fact that Steve is going to get his heart shattered when this inevitably ends, and it will be no one's fault but his own. But again, problems for future Steve.) ]
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Assuming you don't kill me in the process, yeah. [Tony tries to sound casual. Nothing weird here, just an act of altruism on Tony's part. Someone's gotta teach Steve how to use that thing, and it might as well be modern-day Casanova Tony Stark, right? It absolutely makes sense. And if he gets some cuddling in addition to a lot of great orgasms, well, everyone knows Tony's a hands-on kinda guy.]
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I'm really partial to you staying alive. [ He knows he made that plenty clear already, and actions speak louder than words, but sometimes words are needed too. Especially words he gets to speak against Tony's skin. ]
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Well, Tony can't come up with one right now, but it has to exist. He's okay with Steve saving him because it's that Thing Steve Rogers Does, because they'd promised each other to try not to die, but he can't wrap his mind around Steve wanting him alive for some personal, presumably selfish reason that has nothing to do with sex.]
Contrary to anything I might have said earlier, so am I.
[Which may or may not have something to do with Steve, but obviously doesn't because haha why would you think that?]
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[ His reasons for wanting Tony alive were selfish, and they get more selfish as time goes on, because now they have this, and Steve isn't about to give it up for anything. But he can't exactly say that, so he'll let Tony keep thinking Steve's concern is in a fellow Avenger kind of way, not in a deeply personal and emotional kind of way. ]
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[There. Now he can turn the conversation back to something safer, like sex - although there's always the danger that Steve might manage to get it up again, and Tony definitely can't handle another orgasm tonight. All he wants to do is maybe kind of accidentally on purpose fall asleep in Steve's bed. With Steve.
God, he's fucking doomed.]
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Are you sure it's not you who's trying to kill me?
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[Tony sounds entirely too cheerful considering the topic of conversation, but he's right - Steve can handle jumping out of a plane just fine, abusing his libido is no big deal. And, frankly, Steve probably deserves it after all the times he's left Tony hard and wanting without even knowing it, including a handful of really inconvenient erections in the suit.]
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[Tony can't resist a playful jab, mainly to get away from the awkwardness of that 'together' and what it possibly implies.]
I mean, obviously you can do it solo, but that's not why I'm here. Unless you wanna let me watch, which, hey, I fully support. We can have a good time talking about sex toys.
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I meant that I didn't channel all that energy alone, [ he clarifies, ] but let's just forget it and agree neither of us gets to die. Deal?
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